Wednesday, April 16, 2008♥
i am hesitating if i should make this really delicious chocolate fondant..
i turned downed an event for tml...a little reluctant though.
i swear i was not trying to find fault or bored or sian.. somba it will not happen again.
when everyone is asleep.. i am wide awake.. geex.
today i learnt that my ex classmate(not very close though) committed suicide cus she thinks that her life is meaningless..
life can be meaningless unless we can find the right things to do and a goal to work towards(i'm glad i've a goal).. try not to take things too hard cus it will only make our lives more miserable..accepting wadever thats in-front-of-u is an essential survival tool.it will only make things worse if u insist things to go ur way all the time.. but on the other hand it could also make u look like a pushover, or someone who cant make ur own decisions.. hahaha.. give and take? unfortunately,it dun exist all the time
i believe there will be a time when my boss will scold me for making mistakes at work and blame me for all "fatal" conquences.. wad can i do? apologise!!!... and then suck thumb? and tolerate even though u may not think that it entirely ur fault.. definitely, i cant inisist that its not fault cus to my boss, its only excuses.. cant show him that disapproval face, cant scold him back right.. just accept one of the 2 possibilities..either get fired or clear up the mess and continue working but be extra cautious. i shall give myself the benefit of doubt that my boss is tired, stressed or wadever dumb reasons that can happen.. i wun say i have a very high tolerance level.. but i can say that my tolerance level is definitely higher than in the past.. and i jolly well know that there are alot of pple who can put on a very pretty mask to prevent the exposure of their true colours esp in the working society... could anyone get me a mask pls? i have a weakness for showing off my emotions and mood easily.. tsk tsk tsk. bad!
nevertheless, theres still a long way to correct myself in one way or another... (=
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